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The Stresses of Moving House | Third Time Lucky | Letting Go and Moving On
By Viola | June 20, 2007
The Stresses of Moving House | Third Time Lucky | Letting Go and Moving On
Since April this year my house has been on the market. My life has never been the same. It’s the third time now. Twice I had changed my mind in the past, having my reasons, BUT this time it feels right and I am going to go through with it. As the saying goes, third time lucky 
Most, if not all of the people who viewed my house since it has been on the market loved it. They were pleasantly surprised at the deceiving size from the outside, the larger than normal size rooms as well as their brightness, the layout and the gardens. But most of all they all loved its “homely” feeling. Yes, the homely feeling I had almost forgotten, and in an odd way, each of the viewers reminded me in different kind of ways, maybe with comments, gestures and expressions of all those homely years I took for granted and that I should have really been grateful for.
I have been living here for just over 16 years now; in fact it was 16 years in April. Bringing up 5 children in this house carries a lot of sentimental value and I feel that’s why I suddenly feel some kind of “attachment”. Since my divorce almost 7 years ago I have lived here on my own with my two younger children. My older three have already moved on and my younger daughter has moved out almost 2 years ago, so that left my son and me on our own.
I didn’t think it would all happen that quickly, but an offer has been made with the wish to move in by the end of June, which I have accepted. I have almost forgotten how “stressy” moving house is. But most of all, for the last few days I have become more aware of myself, my feelings and how they reflect my moods.
Making lists what needs to be done, cancelled, sorting and changing, arranged and re-directed, packed and thrown. All has to take place in a synchronised manner in between going shopping, cooking, tidying up, doing the washing, ironing, packing, phone calls, making decisions of what stays and what should go, Yoga and Pilates and of course…working on my websites…it all has to be done.
This morning, things changed when I downloaded my e-mails and the very first one read:
Break out of Routine
“One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star.”
~ Nietzsche ~
I sat back in my chair, sighing, thinking…looking around at my lounge that had become my office…Empty walls, piles of paperwork, books, ornaments…and the many packed and half packed boxes. Once again it dawned on me that it is really happening…I am moving!
The chaos within myself turned into calmness…trust…but most of all I felt tremendous Gratitude for my life and the people I love. The things I have, the things I haven’t. For who I have become, the choices I am able to make.
It’s amazing what effect a little reminder as well as encouragement my very first morning e-mail “Break out of Routine” had on my day
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