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Painful Days, Sleepless Nights - Is this Ever Going to Stop?
By Viola | March 7, 2008
Painful Days, Sleepless Nights - Is this Ever Going to Stop?
I am done in!
I went to bed just after midnight and again, (like most nights), woke up tossing and turning with pains under my right heel (creeping up to my knee), getting worse throughout the night. By about 3 AM I just couldn’t take it anymore and I had to get up and walk around. Another tearful, sleepless night with pains beyond words.
Is this ever going to stop?
Since my accident in October 2007 the pains have never stopped. Although some days are easier, I have days/nights where I find the pains harder to handle, but I keep it to myself and try finding comfort knowing that there are people out there who are far worse off then me. And I think about my body and how amazing it is, focusing on how it is trying to fix itself and all the little “messages” it is giving me and how it is talking to me.
I am aware and KNOW that ALL things happen for a reason, but having pains ALL day, NON-STOP, is one thing, but pains ALL night is another. I am shattered! - and at a bit of a ‘loss’ of what to do, as you can imagine after the kind of accident I have had what different messages and opinions you get from (so to speak) ‘medical advisors’. Even though without them, I would have maybe lost my foot, they can be very depressing and all else good for your ‘emotional’ healing, and to me that is a biggest part of recovering. Yesterday my doctor referred me back (her words, not that I have ever been there before) to the Specialist for fractures, the Osteo Clinic, so we will just have to wait and see.
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March 7th, 2008 at 9:34 pm
My Dear Viola — this is so awful, but yet you act so brave. Some days it must feel like it will never end - but from what you say, there are positive signs as well - I’m sorry, I cannot offer some magic CURE - but I can say your ATTITUDE is great - I really admire you - and like you say, one day you will look back at this and see what you learned.
love always
B Xx
March 10th, 2008 at 10:58 pm
i hope you heal soon. as the saying goes, time is a great healer. that goes for the mind, body and soul for they are all connected, and to heal on one level you must heal on all levels. hope that is not too cryptic