Evina | Close the Door to Your Past | Are YOU Listening?
Submitted by Evina
Most of you know me already. For those who don’t, my name is Evina and I am (dare I say) Viola’s best friend.
It’s NOT my day today and it hasn’t been for quite some ‘days’… so I want to be honest and here I am!
Writing is one of the things I enjoy the most. Putting my research, my knowledge, thoughts, personal feelings and of course my OWN personal feelings and experiences into words seems to be like a ‘private’ diary. We all know that there is people like ‘us’ (I trust that you don’t mind me assuming) and those people are quite imporant for our growth. We should all listen to each other and ‘take’ whatever ‘feels right’ and whatever there is to learn.
Lets face it, I’ve been ‘hiding’ away for the last 7 years… YES, SEVEN LONG years… I guess you wouldn’t have know that if you hadn’t read Viola’s Blog… and of course, whatever happens in my life that I am sharing, it’s MY choice, MY RESPONSIBILITY… never mind me being ‘tucked’ away for so long … I’m ready to be ‘released’!!!!! How about that? Are you scared YET?
Release – doesn’t only the word make you cringe?
Have YOU been trapped?
Have YOU been lying to yourself?
Oh NO, don’t you even think it will go away… that will attracet more lies AND you will fool yourself!… We can go for a walk… to the gym… and YES, even for a coffee… and also, YES, we can run… take a vacation… hide… even MOVE… but in the end we are caught… nothing changes… believe me, EVEN I tried it… I was ‘followed’ – followed by my own shadow… and I promise you, I have not found an escape route yet… and neither will YOU! … and once your shadow follows you… what would YOU say?
FACE IT!!!!
There is NO getting away…
So much has happened since last year… WHERE would I start? … HOW would I explain? … — so I am not even going to try.
… AND of course, even me thinks what is the point in sharing…. Are YOU listening?… Do YOU care? ! ? ! ?
… WHY would/should anyone care anyway? Aren’t we all responsible for ourselves? Our experiences?… our pains?… and don’t we all have to learn to let go of our perceptions, our attachments, our beliefs and conditioning… but where do we start???
A wise soul opens the window to the future by closing the doors to the past.
How do you feel? … What would you say? … Where have you been? … Where have you been hiding? …
I’ve known Evina since she was born, and I feel that she’s got a good point! Going through a ‘rough’ time I feel for her and like to support her and others who feel the same.